Forever a Solo? NOT!!

Since July I have been taking violin lessons. 

The more I practice, the more people ask me when I am going to play with the Worship Team at our church. It would be a great honor to do so...yet, I've always worried that I would play a note, or notes and throw everyone off....not bringing glory to God.  So I've kept quiet...and will continue to do so until the Holy Spirit opens the doors.

Even with my music teacher I tremble when I play, with a thousand emotions rushing through me: overjoyed to be playing with him, embarrassed that I sound the way I do, feeling confidence build with each lesson, upset with myself for not practicing the "right" way....just to name a few....

So, when our Pastor....who's also our Worship Leader, has talked about music, there's always been some excuse that I "skate" around...as to why I'm not ready to play.

But yesterday, at Bible Study...I brought my violin and music....determined to play the music our Pastor gave me to practice before I knew I was going to be out of town during the performance.  I felt it would be a beautiful way to celebrate Christmas with my classmates :)

However, the Pastor was downstairs getting things ready for something...probably a rehearsal or something....he found out that I had the music he gave me and asked to run through it right then.

GULP!!! :)  Wowzers!!!  I set my violin down and asked, "You want to practice now?" 

"Yes," he replied with a smile, sitting down at the piano with the music I just handed him...running his hands across the keys.

I tried to take deep breaths in and out as I focused on the notes.....we played through 4 pages of music together as I listened to the piano dance around my rusty violin....but for playing together for the first time, it sounded good!  And my playing didn't mess him up!

My classmates so enjoyed the music too :)

How often have I thought this way in Life?  How many opportunities have I missed because I was too afraid to trust God to play through the music?